My daughter decided that she no longer wants to attend high school. She also told me that she gets sick to her stomach every time she steps onto the campus. She doesn't want to go to a different high school, she wants to go to no high school. No high school that has sports, ASB, dances, and any other regular high school events.
This decision didn't not happen over night. We have been battling with the options for a year. When she has a great day or week, the thoughts of leaving get shoved to the side. When kids make fun of her, she has trouble finding someone to have lunch with, and teachers do not instruct her so that she understands, she wants to leave, and by leave I don't mean drop out.
My daughter prefers to do high school online, two days a week with 3 days of independent work at home, or through an independent study program. Anything other than what she is currently doing. To me, it is odd.
I loved high school. I made the most of high school. I was the president of the ski club, even though we only went skiing once, at night, I ran track, I had a boyfriend, I had friends, I even tried out for song leading and failed. I went to football games and dances, and got average grades. To me, high school was fun.
My girl gets ridiculed for being compassionate and deciding to go to Africa to minister to the kids there. She gets made fun of when she cannot concentrate due to the chatter around her and wants to be moved closer to the front of the class. She boldly wears clothing with scripture verses and makes no excuses for her faith and love for God, but some teenagers think that is weird.
She loves high school group at church, but school, is a different story.
Kids are mean. I get that. People are mean. Hurt people, hurt people. We cannot run away from people. I get that too. However, if this is the one thing that she wants to do, should I not consider her feelings? "Why would you make me do something that makes me miserable?" she questions. Hard to answer that one.
We are weighing our options. We are praying. We are deciding what should be done.
Please tell me I'm not the only person with a teenager who doesn't do high school well.
I dropped her off this morning with resignation and a heavy heart. I have been praying for her all day long. I hope she has a decent day. I hope that she can hang in until we decide on the next step. She is such a great kid.
"If you are insulted because of the name of Christ, you are blessed, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests on you." 1Peter 4:14