I
ruined my vision in the 7th grade. Because my head was lazy, I began
resting it on the back of my hand, fingers sprawled in a tripod position in
order to complete schoolwork from a 4-inch distance from my paper. At first
notice my teachers questioned my vision and my desire to be so close to the
paper, but I assured them that it was just comfortable for me and that my
vision was perfect.
Fast
forward a few years and because my eyes have gotten used to seeing clearly at
five inches in distance, I cannot see far away very clearly. Although my far
vision is lacking in all areas, my close up vision remains nearly perfect. I
can read 1-point font with accuracy and will probably never need reading
glasses.
By
the time I reached college, I needed glasses in order to correct my far vision
and after wearing them for several months, I opted for contact lenses. When
contact lenses are clean and doing their job correctly, they are wonderful, providing
the clear vision that I need for seeing anything farther than 5 feet away. When
they aren’t performing correctly contact lenses can be irritating. At times
they immolate dry, crispy, corn flakes, and at other times the slightest fleck,
can feel as if a hunk of bark were lodged in my eyeball. If I try and move them
with my finger when they veer off course, the smudge left behind from whatever
was on my fingertip often results in my vision shifting from 20/20 to cloudy.
When
I can clearly see what is ahead of me, I have confidence. When I cannot see
what is in front of me, I am filled with fear, anxiety, uncertainty, and
frustration.
Sometimes
my experience with God is like my experience with my degree of eyesight
clarity. I cannot always see clearly what God is doing in my life. But when I
put on the “contact lens” of faith, I can see more clearly what God is doing. There
have been times when I have questioned God’s direction, but, in the end, I have
been able to witness His divine path with clarity. I just have to keep my
“contact” on and clear. Knowing that God always knows what is ahead and that He
is the tour guide of my life, gives me confidence.
Although
my eyesight fails me my Father never fails to lead me. And although I cannot
see far enough ahead to what is coming, He always sees what’s ahead and takes
me along the perfect path. His vision is perfect, and better than 20/20.
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